It's been a while since my last blog post and A LOT has changed....
I don't know how else to describe the last few months of my life, there are so many words... mostly hectic, insane, awesome, exciting as well as filled with lots of learning and even more challenges.
Firstly, a big challenge came when my Nana's cancer took a turn for the worse. Christmas was tough but at least we got to celebrate as a family. Nana was quite sick but still able to open presents and spend time with us. Throughout January and February my Nana was in and out of the hospital and her pain was increasing daily. By the end of February she was admitted in to the hospital for full-time pallative care. Originally there was talk of moving her to a pallative care home but it turned out that time was just to short. After only three days in the hospital the doctors informed us that she would not be leaving. Along with that they decided that because of the intense pain she was in her medications would be upped and her food would be reduced to water only. It was tough to see her in the hospital and suffering but she was so sure of where she was going that it gave me a sense of peace. I know that she is going to a WAY better place than earth. She will be up in Heaven enjoying Gods glory and waiting for us to arrive some day. Of course there are days when I really miss her and wish she was here to share in all the exciting stuff going on. I love her and miss her but know she is in Heaven.
Only a few weeks after my Nana's funeral I had gone to Church and felt extremely sick. Along with feeling sick I was extremely tired and couldn't handle the smell of coffee (definitely NOT ME!) After a few days the sickness did not subside but seemed to have gotten worse. I decided to take a pregnancy test and it came back positive!! Ben and I are extremely excited to become parents in October!! Learning that I was pregnant was such an exciting time but also came with many new feelings. We decided it was best to wait three months to tell our family and friends. This was tough but well worth the wait. Overall I have loved every moment of pregnancy. I am now 28 weeks pregnant which means I only have 83 more days!! Along with my changing body and doctors visits we have learned that our little baby has a multicystic kidney. This means little baby will only have one functioning kidney when they are born. The amazing thing about how God has created us and just how intricute we are made, the functioning kidney will grow to be double its size and function as two kidneys once baby is born. The last few months have been filled with doctor visits with specialists and ultrasounds but overall I have really been at ease about all of it. We have more ultrasounds than usual but this has made me fall in love with our baby even more. God has given us this AMAZING gift and I am excited for becoming a mommy and this new chapter in my life.
Other than those two big massive changes in my life I have been working lots and we have been trying to keep up with our renos as my belly grows. We have made a big decision to finish the house and put it up for sale before baby gets here, we would like to see how much our house has gone up in value and have a larger down payment on our next home. We will see what the outcome is both Ben and I are at ease about it all. God is in control!! The most important thing I have learned over the last few months has been giving up my need to control and letting God take control. He knows all and has planned our lives from when we were in the womb. Of course I need to remind myself almost daily about this but it is getting easier and easier.
I am going to TRY to blog more often, I have had some great little projects I have taken on and our home seems to be changing daily. I'm excited to share it all!!!
